The End of Summer

We have had a great summer. I am so happy that it wasn't spend "waiting" like the last 2 summers. We were able to make plans and not let things hold us back. It has been wonderful. Unfortunately, summer didn't end so great for me. This is what I am sporting for the next 4-6 weeks. The good news? 1 week down. So, this is a Lumbar cast, used for herniated dics. I have 2 of them in my lower back. This is the 3rd time I have been in one of these. The last time was almost 4 yrs ago, after Mady was born. The kicker to this is that you usually don't even know what you do to injury yourself. I went to church and as I sat in sacrament meeting, I started to hurt. I came home and stretched, went visiting teaching and felt better. Monday morning I felf fine so I ran 3 miles and went on with my day. By the afternoon, I couldn not even walk. I have spent all week laying on the couch. I am so bored and going stir crazy. Nate took the kids to Utah Friday night and came home Saturday night. The only thing I did while he was gone was shower, sleep, eat, watch TV and sleep some more. This morning I shopped on line for new running shoes. Yeah, I was told no more of that cause of the jarring, but I bought some and crossed my fingers that I will be able to use them...one day. There have been times over the last couple of years when I get a little baby hungery. I wonder to myself if we made the right decision of not having any more kids. That choice was made because of the back complications I had after Mady was born. I haven't had any major problems since then and sometimes I wonder if I could have handled it. After this week, I know the answer once again. Through this week there has been one thing I have been grateful for, and that is the fact that there isn't a little baby that I feel I am neglecting. It was so hard with Mady. I couldn't hardly sit to hold her let alone carry her around with me. I would just cringe when it was time to nurse her because it hurt so bad to sit. I wasn't able to enjoy her as a baby and I feel awful about that. I am so glad this time around the kids are a little older to help and take care of themselves to some extent. MyLeigh has been wonderful. She gets her school work done, plays with Mady, she is always asking if there is something I need, she picks things up for me. Nate told me Sunday night that she fasted for me to feel better. She has always been a wonderful daughter, she is now beginning to blossom and become so much more. I love the time I get to spend with her and the relationship we have.