Tie a Knot...

"When you feel you are at the end of your rope, tie a knot and hold on!" I can't remember where this quote came from, but I remember when I first heard it. I was in college and teaching Relief Society. It was a quote that went with my lesson. At the time, life consisted of school work, jobs, friends and who was going out with who, roommates and if you had a date for Friday night. At the time, I think all the young girls in that Relief Society thought they were stressed to the max. "Tie a knot and hold on" was the exact words that went through my head when Nate called wednesday morning to let me know that he wasn't coming home on Friday. Instead it would be at the earliest the next Wednesday. If that is the case, it makes it 16 days gone. Mady has not felt great this week and her Asthma got pretty bad on Thursday. I also started to get the body aches again and have a Headache that isn't letting up, not cool when you aren't use to headaches period. My frustration made for a good 4 mile run with a time on 31:52. Never have I done better than 8 min miles, and that just happened a month ago. During that run, I reflected on the blessing Nate gave me the morning that he left. I was still not feeling that great and felt bad that I was half asleep and laying in bed as he placed his hands upon my head. I don't remember most of it, but I remember feeling my Savior's love and being given the strength to take care of my family in Nate's absence. Choosing to not tell the kids till Friday afternoon was good and bad. I felt bad cause they kept asking when he would be home on friday and I had to keep saying that I didn't know for sure. Good cause we made it through the school week and didn't have tears...till Friday afternoon. After the tears, Jaxon went a birthday party and the other kids stayed up late and watched a movie. Saturday Jaxon had a basketball game in the morning and I had an errand to run. We came home, did some cleaning and had an early dinner and headed to the movie. After the movie we went and played at Brooklyn's playground till it was dark (and freezing cold), came home and headed for bed. It was my turn to teach all the Young Women today. I of course have lots of time to prepare. (Knowing a whole year ahead the schedule) Last week I looked at it a couple of times, but just felt that with Nate gone, I needed to take care of the kids and not dive into a lesson, like I let myself do. I kept putting it off waiting for some quiet time to work on it. The problem is, once there is quiet in this house, I want to shut down and go to bed. Finally thursday night I forced myself to stay up and work on it. Friday night I did the same thing. Saturday night I looked over things once and went to bed and found an episode of "Everybody loves Raymond". Just what I needed! Well, the next thing I knew it was 10:15 and MyLeigh was trying to wake me up cause she needed some cough medicine. The show was Looong over, Now that Sunday is almost over, Hopefully the next few days will fly by. With piano lessons, wrestling practice and a meet in malad, gymnastics, scouts, basketball practice and a trip to Aberdeen all by wednesday, it should, shouldn't it?